Happy Birthday Aaliyah.

16 01 2014


Every year I write this, and every year it still doesn’t make any sense. It’s a weird ritual I guess that I’ll never let go of.

I’ll never understand why Aaliyah’s death happened. None of her fans do. I don’t buy into the “it was their time” talk I’ve heard so many times about so many people. Nobody deserves to die young, no matter what your profession is.

I’ve seen many of my favourite bands/singers live but Aaliyah is the only one I wish I could have seen. I remember seeing the video to Back & Forth when I was about 7 years old and I immediately felt alright with being a tomboy. She’s done more for females in music than most of these singers around. I won’t get into my dislike for certain singers, but you know. Aaliyah’s style was just gorgeous. Of course I look nothing like her, but she was always someone I wish I looked like. I wanted to be able to dance like her or even be able to sing just a little bit. I’ve interviewed a few bands and singers, but Aaliyah is one I would have loved to have just talked to about music with. From the influences she had growing up to her love for Korn and Nine Inch Nails. She was ahead of her time, and I think that’s what she is remembered for. When I hear her music now it is like listening to something from the future. Her, Missy and Timbaland were the dream team. They made brilliant music together. Timeless music.

There will be many replicas of other singers, but no one will ever come close to Aaliyah. Ever.

Happy Birthday A x


25 08 2013

Time can be fascinating and time can be cruel. Time is everything and nothing. A hindrance and a healer. You choose. Sometimes time chooses for you.

I went for a run earlier; I ran for many reasons. I ran for the dislike of my body, and also in the hopes I could find the words to eventually write this. Then I realised, this isn’t being written with anyone in mind. I never care for who reads my words because I know for the most part- no one cares for my ramblings on music. This goes beyond music.

We experience things in our lives where we remember everything in that moment. You try to take as much as you can in; as more time passes you remember smaller details that never really held any meaning. Maybe they mean something now; but maybe they never will.

I was in my room when I was told that Aaliyah I had died. I was wearing my favourite red t-shirt. My close friends at that time knew I was a massive fan of Aaliyah’s- my phone kept going off. What I wished to be a lie turned out to be painfully true. I idolised Aaliyah since the very first time I heard her music in 1995. I wanted to be her. I wanted to dress like her; I guess it is why I was always a bit of a tomboy. Her music was the music relaxing and soulful sound I had ever heard. To never hear her voice ever again was something I couldn’t get my head around. To an extent, I still can’t.

It will never feel right writing about Aaliyah in past tense. I know it never will. I always lived in hope I’d see Aaliyah live and meet her to just talk about her music. I love interviewing musicians, and she is probably the one I will always wish I had the chance to interview. It won’t happen in this lifetime, but maybe in the next one.

A friend I gained through the death of Aaliyah who became like a sister to me, last year designed an Aaliyah tattoo for me. It’s on my bicep and around it is the Warpaint logo. The tattoo means more to me than my other tattoos I have; and what it means to me is something I’ll never have the words for. Sometimes, you don’t need words.

The music Aaliyah made changed R&B music; since her death many have tried to carry on what she did. It never worked. Why? There will never be anyone else quite like Aaliyah. One In A Million, always.



25 08 2012

“I want people to remember me as a full on entertainer and a good person.”


I remember the day it happened. It’s nothing something you forget is it? But, I also remember the very first time I saw her on MTV. I was only 8 or 9 years old. 94/95. I was watching MTV and they were playing some new music videos. Back And Forth came on, and I was hooked. I couldn’t tear my eyes away from the screen. There was this beautiful person singing, and she was dressed like a tomboy, you know? From that moment, I became a fan. She became more than a role model. I cannot count the times where her songs have dragged me through hell and back. It wasn’t her lyrics so much, it was her voice. A voice that made you believe everything was going to be alright. She was like no one else around. There is no one else around like her. She was truly truly One In A Million; and I know we’ll never have anyone as beautiful and wonderful as her again. It took a long long time to not dwell on her death and her not being here. When I listen to her music, I feel lucky to have been a fan (and still am) of someone so precious and angel-like. My mum always promised she would take me to an Aaliyah concert when I was younger. It won’t happen in this lifetime, but in the next one I know it will. She was so rare, and I will always believe that the music industry will never be able to fill the gap she left when she died 11 years ago today. We’ll always have the music, because in the end it is the sounds that they create that stay with us for the rest of time.

I hope you’re at peace Aaliyah, wherever you are.

All the love in the world.


Happy Birthday Aaliyah.

16 01 2012

No matter how may times I have done this, it never feels right writing it in past tense. By rights, Aaliyah should still be here making groundbreaking music. You cannot deny that her second album, One In A Million just changed R&B music. It gave the contempary side of this genre the kick up the arse it rightly needed. Who do we have now? Nobody really.Well, we’ve got The Weeknd. He’s no Aaliyah, obviously but he has that futeristic style that Aaliyah had. That style we all loved and adored her for.

She was the first singer I remember being left in awe by. I remember seeing the video to Back & Forth on MTV in 1995. I was 9 years old. This, and Garbage fuelled my obsession with music. I’d study the video to Back & Forth religiously. She made me feel okay with being a tomboy. I loved how secure she was with herself, at such a young age. She just seemed like a beautiful person- not just on the outside, but inside too. This is a rare quality, and Aaliyah Dana Haughton sure had it.

She would’ve been 33 years old today. I recently had an Aaliyah tattoo done, designed by my very best friend/sister. We became friends over the passing of Aaliyah. I guess this proved that through every negative, there is a positive. Again, she has that same rare quality Aaliyah had- beautiful both inside and out.

Aaliyah’s music means so much to me, I cannot explain. It doesn’t seem right that she is gone, it never will. But we have the music. I wear my tattoo with utter pride, and I listen to her music thankful that such a person existed and taught me so much in such a short space of time.

Happy Birthday Aaliyah xxx



25 08 2011

I don’t want to write this, because although it has been ten years it feels entirely wrong. It will always feel wrong.

I remember being sat in front of the telly watching MTV I was about 8 or 9 years old, and I was just in awe of this beautiful person on the screen. I wanted to be just like her, she instantly became the most important musical force in my life. I carried my love for Aaliyah’s music from primary school onwards. I remember saving up enough money to buy her debut album, Age Ain’t Nothing But A Number and just playing it every day. I probably ruined it, which explains why I have more than one copy of all 3 of her albums. There are only 2 or 3 artists I have more than one copy of their albums due my excessive play of their albums.

I was drawn to Aaliyah’s music the same way most are- her delicate voice. A voice that no other singer has ever mastered aside from her. Certain singers have evidently tried (and failed) to copy the whole vibe Aaliyah had, she truly truly was one in a million.

The more I write about this using past tense, the more wrong this just feels. She should still be here making music and making films. There is no way at all where anyone can justify this beyond awful loss.

If I had to list my favourite albums of all time, I would easily put her 3 albums in my Top 10.  However her second album, One In A Million for me, just showed the world how amazing she really was. Her vocals on this album were so strong but with that gentle feel. Her smooth vocals were what she was best known for- again something which have attempted to copy but just cannot come close to it at all.

Aaliyah was just easy to love and relate to. The way she was in interviews and how she touched on so many subjects in her music just made it easy for you to fall in love with her music. Every once in a while a singer comes around that just leaves a mark- in your life and in music that nothing and no one will ever replicate. Nothing will ever replace it. It’s just like having that one person in your life that nothing and no one in the world is better than or will ever take the place of.

One of my favourite videos by Aaliyah was Hot Like Fire. I don’t know what it is, but I just loved the way it was shot and Missy popping up and doing her little dance was pretty cool too. I remember watching her at the VMAs, and she took her brother with her. I thought that was one of the coolest thing ever, but I think what shocked most was that she was wearing a dress. If you watch any of her music videos up to that point- she never wore a dress. She, as ever, looked stunning. She always did. She could wear ridiculously baggy clothes and still be the most beautiful person in the world. Her style was perfect, everything about her was.

Her last album had a sound to it that no other R&B artist has ever managed to come close to achieving. The sound on songs such as I Refuse, Those Were The Days and It’s Whatever- you just know it’s her.  The aggression on What If is something that was never felt in any of her music before, but it worked. It just proved that Aaliyah could sing any genre and just own it. She wasn’t just an R&B singer, she was so much more- and that is what I and others will always remember her as.

She was one of the greatest entertainers of my generation. Not many artists are worth looking up to. But Aaliyah, well, she really was. She was the perfect all-round entertainer. Aaliyah was a fantastic dancer, singer and actress. There will never be anyone else quite like her. Since that first time I saw her on MTV I have always looked up to her and admired her, I just cannot put it into words. I’d constantly try and learn the dances in her music video. I think at one point I knew every move in the videos to Try Again and More Than A Woman. I probably made my own up too. My mum always promised me that she would take me to see Aaliyah is she ever toured the UK, sadly, it never happened. If I could’ve seen anyone live, it would’ve been her.

She was such a creative force and constantly ahead of her time from her style, to the hair over her eye to the music she created.

I’ve been told that with every negative there’s a positive, at the time I didn’t believe it- but a few months after her death I met someone who instantly became not only my best friend, but my sister too. She knows who she is, and through this tragic loss I gained someone who changed my life. She may now live on the other side of the world, but she will always be one of the most important and special person in my life. Without her, well…I have no idea really.

Writing about Aaliyah in past tense just doesn’t feel right, and I don’t believe I have done her any justice with what I have written, but as ever- it has come from the heart.

R.I.P. Aaliyah xxxx ~/.\~

“Everything is worth it. The hard work, the times when you’re tired, the times where you’re a bit sad . . . In the end, it’s all worth it because it really makes me happy. There’s nothing better than loving what you do.” ~Aaliyah Dana Haughton, 2001 (MTV Diary.)

Aaliyah Dana Haughton.

25 08 2010

In 1995 sometime I had MTV on. I was about 9 years old, and I saw this girl singing in a video on a basketball court. I fell instantly in love with everything about her. I loved her clothes, her voice…everything. I just thought she was amazing.

Her music got me through hell…that was also known as school. And even when she passed, her music still got me through some shit. It is easy to focus on how she died, but it won’t do any good. It won’t bring her back and it won’t stop it from hurting. I wish there was more music, I wish there was more films…but you have to accept at some point that they’re not coming back. Some things are just hard to process, but it’s okay. Three albums, a load of b-sides and film soundtracks- we still have the music. Nothing can ever take that away.

And through every bad thing, there’s a good thing waiting. It’s how I got one of my best friends. Okay, this is getting too personal..so I’ll just add some of my favourite videos.

4 Page Letter.

One In A Million. < Favourite song ever.

We Need A Resoluton.

More Than A Woman.

Hot Like Fire.

Try Again.

Back And Forth.



Happy Birthday Aaliyah.

16 01 2010

Today would’ve been Aaliyah’s 31st birthday. There’s nothing I can say that has already been said about how talented and beautiful she was. I became a fan instantly when I first saw Back And Forth on telly in 1994 or 1995. I thought she was the coolest person ever with the baggy jeans and sunglasses. Everything she did always sounded so new and different. You listen to some singers now, and you can tell that are trying to be as good as her, copy her style. But she truly was One In A Million. Nobody comes close, never have. Never will.

No other song has sounded like this : We Need A Resolution.

This : At Your Best (You Are Love). < The vocals are amazing..she was like 14/15. Mind=BLOWN.

This :  Are You That Somebody?

And of course, this : One In A Million.

I could put others like Try Again, 4 Page Letter, Hot Like Fire..but you already know that every Aaliyah song was just brilliant.

There will never be another like her. Ever.

Aaliyah Dana Haughton

16 01 2009

There’s one singer who for me, was and always will be my favourite. I may love other singers, but this one is the most special. I hate that I have to write it all in past tense when talking about her.

Today would’ve been Aaliyah’s 30th birthday. I remember first hearing Back & Forth and falling in love. I was only young, but it was enough. I started really caring about music because of her, and if I’m honest when I hear R&B singers now, I can’t help but think “Aaliyah did it first.” I think most of her fans feel the same way. Her sound was like no other, yet every other sound a bit like her. Her dancing was flawless and her voice was relaxing. You could listen to One In A Million and be sent to your own little world.

Although she was 22 when she died, she accomplished a hell of a lot. Two successful films, 3 amazing albums and an army of loyal fans. I managed to finally get hold of Romeo Must Die on DVD  a few months ago! However, her eating a heart in Queen Of The Damned did make me feel a bit nauseas! Watching those performances, there’s no denying that she would’ve played lead in a bunch of films and more than likely won a bunch of awards!

I’m going to attempt to list my Top 10 Aaliyah tracks. I’ll probably change my mind as soon as I click on “Publish.” 🙂

10.Journey To The Past

9.Messed Up

8.Miss You

7.If Your Girl Only Knew

6.At Your Best(You Are Love)

5.Try Again

4.We Need A Resolution

3.More Than A Woman

2.Turn The Page

1.One In A Million

I want to make it more than my Top 10 because I feel Hot Like Fire should be in there and 4 Page Letter. Those two are timeless. Classic videos too. So for the record, I’ll probably want to change my mind but won’t. Can’t forger rare tracks like Are You Ready?, Steady Ground and No Days Go By. Oh, and I Am Music (Timbaland and Static)

She was the only singer that I really wanted to meet. Her signature sound/style will never get old and will continue to influence.

This is probably the longest blog entry I’ve done, and is probably quite lame/pathetic but..whatever.

I forgot to add this video I found on YouTube, it’s a live performance which shows Aaliyah quite possibly at her best. I love it 🙂 Aaliyah- If Your Girl Only Knew (Live)

Happy Birthday Aaliyah ~/.\~


Timbaland Top 10.

23 11 2008

I was listening to some of my old music earlier and heard a bunch of Timbaland’s old stuff. So I thought, a Top 10 is much needed. Why? I have no idea. Maybe because it’s Sunday and I’ve not got anything to do 9I have got stuff to do, I’m just not doing it!)

So, here’s my Top 10 Timbaland Produced Tracks :

10.  Timbaland & Magoo feat. Static- We At It Again

9.  Ginuwine- What\’s So Different

8. Nas feat. Aaliyah- You Won\’t See Me Tonight

7. Missy Elliott feat. Nicole Wray and MC Solaar- All N My Grill

6. Bubba Sparxxx- Ugly

5. Ms.Jade feat. Timbaland and Nelly Furtado- Ching Ching

4. Ginuwine- Pony

3. Timbaland, Aaliyah and Static- I Am Music

2. Aaliyah- One In A Million

1. Aaliyah feat. Timbaland- Are You That Somebody


There you go. My Top 10 Timbaland tracks. I was unsure whether or not to swap 1 with 1, however if it was my Top 10 Aaliyah tracks then One In A Million would be Number 1. No questions asked. My favourite song ever by my favourite singer ever- but that’s a different blog entry, which will be soon!