Author Archives: Olivia

Mindless violence, pointless riots.

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I know that I use this strictly for Music purposes, but when something like this happens- I cannot help but write about it.

Why is this happening? Why are small minded fucks setting fire to peoples homes and businesses? What the hell are they trying to achieve? What are the exactly rioting for/against?

A young lad was shot and killed by the police. His family held a PEACEFUL protest. However, a fistful of yobs have taken it upon themselves to act like feral beasts up and down the country and ruin towns and cities. For what? Breaking into shops and stealing goods is NOT going to make the Police treat people any better. It is NOT going to make the Government listen and sort this mess out. If anything, they are just going to ignore. They will ignore the voices of those who want to be heard- for the right reasons.

Thing is, it is the Youth that are doing this. What hope can we place in this generation when this is how they react to anything and everything? Who should carry the blame for this? Families? Friends? Media? Schools? Lay the blame wherever you want, but nobody will take responsibility.

Burning down family businesses is just beyond words. Have the owners of this business personally harmed you? No. And even then, it wouldn’t be acceptable. To the wankstains of life who are doing this, how would you feel if someone did this to YOUR family? Don’t ever do what you wouldn’t want doing to yourself.

Life is harsh and cruel enough, why must we stoop to the disgusting level of violence to get ourselves heard? Why must they destroy communities for no reason at all? To understand any of what is happening, then I suppose you are as bad as them. I don’t personally have any faith in the Government or the police force- but doing things like this? Well, it’s just disgusting. There are NO legit reasons as to why this is happening. It should not be happening.

We live in a time where the current financial climate is, well, fucked. Doing things like this is going to make it worse. The Government will turn their backs on helping out the young as they will see them as immature fucks with a disgusting attitude, and to be honest- I don’t think I can blame them for it. Why help people who don’t want it. Or if they do, they are going about this the wrong way.

In 20, 30 years time these “riots” will not be remembered in a positive manner at all. Look at the Stonewall riots- at least that was for something that wasn’t worthless. What’s going on now is just disgusting.

My faith in humanity, I think, has finally faded. There is no hope, no love, no kindness. And it hurts and breaks my heart to see buildings being burnt down and communities falling apart.

Is there any coming back from this? I bloody hope so. I really bloody do.

Homes are being looted and set alight. To the dickheads doing this, how would you feel if your frail grandparents were living in a home that was being set fire to? How would you feel? Well, you probably wouldn’t would you.

The blame for all of this is going to be passed around constantly. No one will stand up and say “This is my doing.” What kind of punishment will those responsible get? A few years in prison? A slap on the wrist and a warning? Be harsh with these fucks who are doing this. Make them rebuild all they have destroyed.

Even if they rebuild what has been destroyed- the damage has been done.

Will they blame unemployement? I’ve not had a job since March. I don’t want to go around setting fire to things and smash things up. Will they blame the Government? I’m angry at the Government, but I don’t want to destroy people’s homes and ruin their possesions. Will they blame the police? I don’t have much respect for them, but I don’t want to riot for anything and everything.

This generation seem to be angry for the sake of being angry, and it is soul-destroying. The World owes you NOTHING. Stop acting like a fucking victim. Stay in school. Get an education and MAKE SOMETHING out of yourself. Acting like this just makes you a massive prick. This society is worth more than this. People are angry for the sake of being angry. It’s so wrong. So painfully wrong.

So how do we make it right?

Marina And The Diamonds- Fear And Loathing.

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I was going to go to bed because I have the migraine the size of a whale. However, I have just heard Marina’s new song and all I want to do is listen to it on repeat for the next hour or so. I will do exactly that, I can feel my migraine disappear with each listen.

One of the most annoying yet comforting things in life is when someone can actually sum up how you feel without you doing it. When it’s a friend it can really irk you. However, when it’s a singer- it doesn’t matter. You are thankful for it and you think “how the fuck did I last this long being so misunderstood?!” I just feel so honoured to have met Marina last year. There’s not many singers I feel this weird connection with, but when I first heard her music in 2008 I felt it straight away, and it didn’t bother me at all. When you find an artist when you are lost, it is such an intense feeling and you cannot believe it has happened.

To me, this song is like a kick up the arse for me. I don’t want to delve into a personal area- there’s a time and place. This is neither. But this song feels like she has managed to go inside my head and write exactly how I feel down. I felt this when I listened to The Family Jewels. How I feel about Guilty, I feel about Fear And Loathing.

What I love about Marina is her way of writing about the things that makes a person feel angry, vulnerable, fragile and lost. She evokes all these feelings in a way that many wish they could. Hell, I wish I could. She vocalises the beauty in frustrations. The beauty being, her making you feel that it is totally okay to feel like shit. It is okay to hurt, to feel delicate. To feel shit about yourself. It’s all okay. Many will run and hide from how they feel about themselves. Many will work so hard to not show how they feel. Why should they? You’re a human being- feel something. Whether it is good or bad, it is okay to feel.

I just love Fear And Loathing so much. I know that her Diamonds will feel exactly the same, like Marina has got inside her head and just created this piece of art that sums up how we all feel.

Whatever I write about this song will not do it justice. It will not show you just how close to perfection it is. She constantly blows my mind with her lyrics, her way with words. I have every faith that her second album will be just as inspiring as her debut.

Best Coast- NEW SONG!

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If Best Coast’s new album sounds like this, I will be so effin’ happy. The debut album came out last year, and I still play it every single day. It’s just gorgeous. Bethany’s voice is so angelic and stunning.

“I don’t wanna be how they want me to be.” So apt. “You don’t want me to be how they want me to be.” So true, so true right now. It’s just a beautiful song that you have to play on repeat and wrap it around your heart. Metaphorically, of course!

People vs Music.

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I have made it clear on many occasions that I find it so easy to fall in love with a piece of music, yet feeling anything (romantically) towards a person is damn near impossible. Obviously I have felt something to a couple of people, but my feelings for a piece of music are more constant and maybe more honest. I don’t know. Maybe I will get carried away writing this and you may think, “Olivia, you need help.” I don’t. I need someone to pay me to write. I also need that Velvet Underground boxset I saw in Manchester last year. Oh, and tickets to see The Kills and Zola Jesus. I’d appreciate it if someone took me to see them. Or just gave me a ticket and I’ll go on my own. Be a bit odd if I went with a stranger.

Anyway.

Music is my life. I’m not one for thinking, “Oh I’d love to settle down blah blah blah.” So far from it. I want to write and write until the day I die. I want to go to as many gigs as possible, fall in love with new bands, rekindle my love for old bands. I want to follow a band on tour and write about it. Just like in Almost Famous. I want to make someone feel the way I do about music with my words just like Lester Bangs and John Peel did to me. I want to leave a mark. A positive mark. I want to get people into music that makes them feel something from the depths of their soul, that reaches a place they thought couldn’t be reached. Make the impossible- possible. For me, for anyone. I don’t care who. I’m rambling.

The way I feel when I walk into a record shop is like a child in Toys R Us or someone looking at their partner. Full of love and awe. When I go to a record shop, I have to pick up the records I want. Touch them and study everything about them. I take every single piece of detail in. I do not understand people who download music at all.  Why would you prevent yourself of the greatest musical experience? Buying an LP or CD, going home. Laying on your bed, playing the music and flicking through the album’s artwork. Laying on your bed with the music playing and you just catapult yourself into another world. You escape because reality can be a bore and a pain in the arse can’t it.

Music makes you feel things that every day life can sometimes rob you of. I mean sure, you can listen to a love song and think, “I wish I could fall in love.” Then again, you can listen to a painful, heart-wrenching song and think, “I hope I never ever feel like that.” There is something about music that can make you feel less scared. There is something about people that can terrify you.

I’m 24 fast approaching 25 and I am not afraid to admit that most of the time, I feel like a loner. Yet, when I play certain songs- I don’t feel like that. If I go to a friend and told them a problem I had and they said, “Oh I can relate.” I’m not entirely sure if I would believe them or feel comforted. Yet, say if I felt like shit and played a certain song and could sense that the artist was conveying everything I feel- I would feel comforted, and I wouldn’t feel so alone with what I felt.

Musicians have so much power over the likes of you and I. Maybe they shouldn’t, but they do. The amount of times I keep everything to myself and just play a song to make myself feel better is insane. I feel more secure with hearing a song than using my own words. Maybe I just don’t have the words. I’m pretty good with expressing how I feel to certain people. I mean, there’s only two people I’d do that to- but I can do it. Yet sometimes, all it takes is for a song. A certain line to just hit the nail on the head and for you think,”Yes. That’s it. That is exactly how I feel!” And suddenly, you feel okay.

So, in short, music has the power. The power to do anything and everything to you. It will not let you down. It will not leave your side.

I will end this with a few quotes from my favourite film of all time, Almost Famous. That film changed my life.

“They don’t even know what it is to be a fan. Y’know? To truly love some silly little piece of music, or some band, so much that it hurts.”

“If you ever get lonely, just got to the record store and visit your friends.”

Youth Lagoon.

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Every so often an artists comes around and just blows me away with their sound. The vulnerability in their words and the passion in their music just leaves me stunned and in awe.

At the moment, it is Trevor Powers aka Youth Lagoon that is blowing my mind with his beautiful music. If you love Beach House, I promise that you will adore Youth Lagoon. He creates music that you can use as a reflection or a way to escape. In some cases- both at the same time. It is music to make you think, “Shit….that was written about me.” Yet at the same time you can wack your headphones in, and just forget everything and everyone around you. Just lose yourself in the beautiful, perfect sounds he has created.

Youth Lagoon Souncloud page.

 

 

Why do we love who we love?

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One’s choice in music is a highly personal thing. My reasons for the love I have towards certain artists is highly personal, just as to the reason why you adore the band you love. So, what reason do we have to slag it off? None. None at all.

Now, I have done and still do mock some of my friends music taste. However- I clearly do not mean it. If you think Britney Spears is the best thing in life, go ahead and enjoy yourself. If meaningless “pop” music gets you going, so be it. You stick to that, I’ll stick to Velvet Underground and the likes of. I’m not friends with certain people because of their music taste but the person they are. Someone could like the same music as me but be the biggest wanker in the world. Or, they could have the opposite taste and be the most loving, trust-worthy person I know. I’ll go with the latter. I’ll take heart over what music you like any day.

I’ve probably got just the one friend who appreciates the same bands as I do. They love My Bloody Valentine, Suede, The Jesus And Mary Chain as much as I do. They just get it. They get that TJMC words mean everything to me, however this friend likes bands I’d rather rid the music industry of. But, the friendship works and I wouldn’t have it any other way at all. Yes it’s all well and good to have common ground, but at the same time- you want something for your own. None of my friends will appreciate and love Zola Jesus the way I do. Just like I don’t appreciate or even like certain bands they do.

Everyone judges everyone based on the things that do not matter. Do I care for your sexuality? No. Do I care what your race is? No. Do I care for what your religion is? No. I care for none of these things. Do I care what music you are into? To an extent, it’d be nice to talk about something wouldn’t it. It’s on a par with what kind of literature you are into (Poe is the greatest!) You should never let anything define who you are. For instance, I’m a lesbian (hate that word) but I never ever and will never let it define who I am. I suppose if I had to, I’d just use the word “Punk” to define who I am. Based on my thoughts, feelings, way of being and music I’m into, you know? Gun to my head, I’d choose “Punk.” Failing that, I’d just say Human Being, because that is what we are- before anything and after everything, that is what we are first. Human Beings.

So, as we are Human Beings why do we feel the need to belittle others for what they are into? I was speaking to my mum the other day about the music I am into. She said, “Ever since I can remember you have always listened to music that was dark I suppose. You always listened to music that was never played on the radio- unless you heard John Peel play it.” That’s so true. All too often I’ve been called “pretentious” amongst others words based on what I listen to. I’ve never paid attention to the charts because I really don’t see the point in them. Why is there such competition for something so meaningless? Surely it means more for people to come see you live or stop you in the street and say,”Your album changed my life.” Rather than being number 1 constantly. I don’t know, I really don’t. However, as much as I adore the music I listen to, which I suppose is mainly Punk and Shoegaze- no one seems to believe me when I say I bloody love Bros. When Will I Be Famous used to make me dance when I was a baby. I think I had a routine. I also had a slight obsession with Jason Donovan. I have no shame nor will I apologise for it.

So, to all you people who are constantly called names because you love music that everyone mocks you for- I feel for you. I really do. So, do me a favour- next time someone attempts to put you down- just tell them to quite simply, shut the f__k up. You are a person. No one is like another. Like what you like. Love who you want to love. Be free. Always, be free. In your heart, body, mind and soul- just be free. Constantly. Nobody can take what you love from you if you keep it locked in your heart.

You should never have to justify yourself to anyone. You love Ke$ha? Go for it. You love Echo & The Bunnymen? Be proud. To hell what anyone else thinks or says.

I cannot explain my love for Morrissey, I just don’t have the words. I love him because well, I just do. Just like I love other bands- I have reasons for why, but I just lack the words to express why. I suppose that shows the depth of my love. You love because you can. You just do.

Never change who you are for anyone. Be proud. Always.

Morrissey. Royal Hall, Douglas. Isle Of Man. 1st August 2011.

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There is nothing I can say about Morrissey’s live shows that haven’t been said before. You’d think after seeing him 4 times I would be able to write something semi-decent about what I saw. It’s a struggle to put perfection into words. It is hard to write down the beauty you have just witnessed into sentences that make sense.

However, I shan’t be shy, I’ll give it a go….said the Nun to the Bishop (I’m not sorry for that.)

Morrissey strides onto the stage. Greeted by cheers, screams, smiles and tears, Launching right into I Want The One I Can’t Have, the words burn right through me. Every word is relatable. Every word means the world. He greets the audience, “Hello Monte Carlo.” His humour is priceless. He’s mine and many others saviour. The songs we have all heard tonight are quite frankly, the songs that have saved and shaped my life.

I thoroughly enjoyed the new song, Scandinavia. Matthew’s drumming on this is astounding. So loud, so perfect.

What I love about Morrissey’s shows is when Boz walks to the front of the stage, playing the guitar as Morrissey backs away as he’s stopped singing. It’s a small gesture, but at the same time- entirely wonderful to watch.

Apparently Julia couldn’t be here tonight as she was sick. Moz handed the mic to the crowd and asked what Julia was missing. A girl asked if she could come on stage for a hug. Of course he said yes, “but be quick about it.” As she climbed onto the stage everyone cheered. The unity at his gigs is glorious. Whenever someone manages to get on stage or touches his hand, everyone claps and cheers. It just means so much. It means the world to the individual, and quite rightly so.

You’re The One For Me Fatty always makes me smile. It’s not exactly the most sensitive title for a song- although I know there are worse. But the sentiment in the song is just lovely. Seeing it live was something I always wanted to see, and now I have.

Of course it is songs such as There Is A Light, Irish Blood, Everyday Is Like Sunday that cause the crowd to go a wee bit more mental than usual. I firmly believe Everyday Is Like Sunday is written about the Isle of Man. The dirty sea, battered seafront, dirt ridden sand. It could be about any of these coastal towns that time forgot- Blackpool, Morecambe etc. It’s grim up North as they say. But I wouldn’t have it any other way.

I Know It’s Over always always ruins me. It takes me back to a place I hope I never ever have to go back to, but at the same time-makes you realise how strong and better you are now.

His words just mean everything to me. I don’t want to divulge into such personal details but certain things he says on stage make me realise a lot. People are too quick to think and feel like everyone else, but when someone doesn’t- they are called every bad name under the sun. It’s awful. Have an opinion and make it known. Choose your words carefully and be cautious with some of your actions. However, you must always be true to yourself. That’s what I take from a Morrissey gig. I wouldn’t have it any other way.

Personally, it is Speedway that really touches me this time. “In my own sick way, I’ve always been true to you.” You know when you feel a line is just written for you, and you alone? I feel that away about the line. The whole song just speaks volume right now. If I could personally thank him for all he has done for me, I would. Instead, I just write these words down and publish them on my blog.

Just before the encore he said, “As you now know, music today is now shit.” Never a truer word spoken. Was it in reference to Amy Winehouse’s tragic passing recently? Who knows. I like to think it was Morrissey’s way of paying tribute to such a beautiful, talented yet fragile human being. If it wasn’t? Well he’s still right isn’t he.

I grew up on the Isle of Man (fortunately I don’t live here anymore) and for someone like Morrissey to play here, it is quite easily the best thing to have happened here. For some, this may have been their first gig tonight. Future gigs they attend now have a lot to live up to.

Morrissey, I thank you. I thank you for your words and music. I honestly have no idea where I would be without them.

Summer Camp- Better Off Without You.

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Summer Camp- Better Off Without You.

I first heard I Want You by my favourite duo, Summer Camp at the start of the year. I have played it every single day since the first time I heard it. I am, quite simply, addicted to it. It’s more than likely my favourite song of this year. It’s the way the bass kicks in and just goes through you in a way you cannot imagine another song doing. It’s the way Elizabeth sings, “You’re so smart, you break my heart” that just makes every single part of you tingle and your heart skip a beat. The song grips you and you cannot get enough of it. It’s intense, powerful and dark. Just like the perfect form of romance.

Better Off Without You is a delightful “FUCK YOU” and let’s face it- most of us have someone in our lives that we are a billion times better off without. I’d love to play this to them, but they are not worthy of such a wonderful song.

No one I know likes Summer Camp nor have they heard of them. I’m keeping them as my band. They’re the ones I don’t want to share with my friends. They are the ones I don’t want anyone else to take from me. Selfish? Of course, but I rarely do it.

Summer Camp are my band of the summer. I Want You is my favourite song of the year. Better Off Without You is the best FUCK YOU song I’ve heard in a while.In short, Summer Camp are basically my favourite new-ish band. They just do something to my body and mind when I hear their music. It takes over everything. As much as I’d like to keep them as my little secret, I want everyone to know how mindblowingly (that’s now a word) amazing they are.