With songs, I always seem to be drawn to ones that will cause me to feel a bit shit or make me cry. Not because I enjoy feeling like shit, far from it. But there is something about the vulnerability a singer projects that makes you feel exactly the same.

There is one band, more specifically one song- Broken Heart by Spiritualized. I never really talk about Spiritualized with my friends because well, I doubt any of them would give a shit. So I keep quiet and enjoy them. I like to keep certain bands for just me, and I think Spiritualized are one of them.

Broken Heart is easily the saddest song I have ever heard. I just played it, and I immediately broke down. Maybe it’s because I can stupidly relate to it right now, maybe it is because the way Jason Pierce sings you can feel his pain. Maybe it is the orchestral sounds that add an element of sadness to it that a voice can’t. It’s all of these reasons and more. It’s so painfully accurate. Next time you have your heart torn out, listen to this song. In fact listen to the entire album, Ladies And Gentlemen We Are Floating In Space. It’s one of the most gorgeous albums ever created, I’ll say that about all of Spiritualized’s albums, but there is something about this one that does something to you. It breaks you and fixes you at the same time.

“Though I have a broken heart, I’m too busy to be heart broken. There’s a lot of things that need to be done, But I have a broken heart.” You know you have things to do, but you cannot face them because everything just hurts. Getting out of bed seems to be the most difficult thing in the world to do. Everything seems pointless and painful.

“I’ve been told that this will heal given time, but I have a broken heart” You know that deep down you’ll get over it, but your heart is in pieces and no part of you at that specific time feels like you can carry on. You can’t do anything. Nothing and no one can heal you. It’s just too much. Dealing with a broken heart is too much to bear. There’s nothing you can do, it’s when you feel at your most helpless and hopeless. You constantly feel worthless.

“And I’m crying all the time, I have to keep it covered up with a smile. And I’ll keep on moving on for a while, but I have a broken heart.” Just when you think the song could not get any more distressing and heartbreaking, you are hit with this stomach churning line. The whole song is like a kick in the gut, a reminder of the worst pain you have ever (emotionally) felt. If you can pull yourself through heartbreak, you can pull yourself through anything. Although sometimes it is just too much. Sometimes you have to do it alone, sometimes you have to have outburst to anyone who will listen. What do I do? Oh I keep quiet and listen to Spiritualized. I played it earlier for the first time in a long time, and it just caused me to bawl. Everything at once just hit me- not from a personal point of view, but hearing how hurt Jason Pierce sounds, it isn’t right that one person can be made to feel this way from the awful actions of another person.

Heartbreak happens to us all; at the time it feels like the worst thing in the world. Then somehow, you manage to overcome it. You don’t know how, but you just do. Maybe it’s because you have no choice.

I am told it gets better, I’m still waiting.