From last Friday, the only song I’ve listened to is Good News by Mac Miller. I won’t declare to be his biggest fan, but I absolutely adored him and his music. I thought he had something about him that just made you feel less alone, and less weird. It’s totally okay to be weird, but I mean in a headspace kind of way. When he released Swimming in 2018 I felt like, and I think most did, that this was HIS record. The record he had always been destined to make. I imagined the tour and how these songs would sound live. I was one of the unlucky ones who never got to a Mac show.
Then he left us. It’s a loss that ripped through so many. Mac wasn’t just a rapper. He was something else, something bigger. His way with words, his soothing voice, his production skills, his mind, his talent- everything. It was just out of this world. After the release of Swimming, I wasn’t sure if we would get anything else. That was until last week when it was announced that Circles will be released this Friday. I’m so excited about it, but I know it’s going to be a tough listen. Good News came out last Friday; initially I found it too painful to listen to. The second I heard his voice, I cried. If you want to understand the power of this song- check out Anthony Fantano’s review on YouTube. He breaks down, and it’s so easy to understand why.
As someone who has a daily battle with depression and anxiety, and with it being worse with the loss of my Grandma recently- I cling onto the songs that really hit me. I sometimes search for them. They’re in the music I love and own already, but something else has been needed. That’s why Good News really hit me in the gut. The essence of it? People only want to know you when you’ve got something good to say. No one wants to hear the bad side, and how you wish you could escape your mind for a little while.
The first verse is so brutally honest and delicate:
“I spent the whole day in my head
Do a little spring cleanin’
I’m always too busy dreamin’
Well, maybe I should wake up instead
A lot of things I regret, but I just say, “I forget”
Why can’t it just be easy?
Why does everybody need me to stay?
Oh, I hate the feeling
When you’re high but you’re underneath the ceiling
Got the cards in my hand, I hate dealing, yeah
Get everything I need then I’m gone, but it ain’t stealing
Can I get a break?
I wish that I could just get out my goddamn way
What is there to say?
There ain’t a better time than today
But maybe I’ll lay down for a little, yeah
Instead of always trying to figure everything out
And all I do is say sorry
Half the time I don’t even know what I’m saying it about.”
I don’t think there’s anyone in this world that hasn’t related to a single part of this verse. Being tired of being tired and feeling like shit is exhausting; Mac sums it up in the most accurate and beautiful way possible. He does it so simply, he doesn’t need to go overboard or be pretentious with his words. They naturally come out like this, and that is why it is so easy to connect with this song and his words. It’s why we are fucking miss him.
The song feels like a journey. The ending of the song makes you feel like he has written this from the other side; that he’s got to where he wanted to go to have a clear headspace. Or maybe he’s realising it can get better. The latter makes it more heartbreaking. Although he had been around for ages, Swimming was the record he needed to make and it was going to take him places. But, the universe didn’t work out that way. I feel that Good News is his way of letting us know that in time, it’ll be alright. It’s a really tough listen, even if you’re not a Mac fan you’ll probably still find it a tough listen.
Mac’s voice is so soothing on this. I mean, it always is but there’s something about Good News and Self Care that make you feel he is talking right to you and is letting you know it’ll all be alright. He had that about him. Wise beyond his years.
Good News is a heartbreaking listen, but it is an important one. Maybe it’ll be your crutch. Maybe it’ll get you out of that rut. Maybe, just maybe.