Although he was credited on the album, Lol Tolhurst didn’t play on this record. Robert Smith returned to taking halluciongenic drugs. Could they actually make a solid record with all this going on? In short, yes. Fucking hell, yes. Disintegration saw the band return to that wonderful dark and gloomy sound that caused you to fall in love with them years before. Well, it depends on your age really; but you know what I mean.

The album opens with Plainsong and posses a beautiful line at the end of the song, it causes your heart to ache. But you resentfully smile because you can think of someone who you can easily associate it with. That’s the pain of relating to a song so much isn’t it. There’s always someone you can associate it with. Thankfully I cannot associate anyone with this song. Other songs by The Cure, I probably could. But I do my best not to, I don’t want someone to ruin what this band mean to me. So yes, the line is: “Sometimes you make me feel like i’m living at the edge of the world.”  It’s such a gorgeous line. What’s so stunning about this lyric is that you can takew what you want from it. The person can make you feel like you’re on the edge of the world because they make you feel so shite you want to just jump off a cliff OR they make you feel nerous, on edge; but in a good way. Their presence makes your stomach flip and nothing can compare to it. Personally, I take the latter meaning. There’s no better feeling. The Cure can teach y0u everything you need to learn about love.

Pictures Of You will always be one of the ultimate songs by The Cure. It is so woeful and loving at the same time. You ache with Robert as he sings this treasure of a song. Is it about death or is it about the love of your life leave you? Both are about loss, so I guess the general meaning is loss. We’ve all looked at the photos of the one we are fond of, wishing they were there; but they are gone. Long gone, and it kills. You think you cannot possibly go on; but you can. You will and you do. It’s okay.

The video to Lullaby scared me for so long, but I used to be so engrossed by it; I just had to watch. The song is creepy but that’s why you love it. You love the way Robert Smith whispers each word. It freaks you out by no part of you wants to turn it off.  The lyrics are so poetic, if you just look at the lyrics; it just reads like a Romantic piece of poetry. The imagery is so beautiful, the pictures it conjures up in your mind is just enthralling.

There’s a track on this album that just tugs at my herartstrings and takes over, just everything really. It’s seven minutes of perfection. Homesick. I hate where I grew up. Going to University was the best thing I’ve ever done (for the sake of my own mental health!) Obivously it’s proved useless in the job area as I don’t have one. Homesick just defines how I feel about where I grew up. All my family are here, and yes it’s bloody difficult living in a different country, far from them- but when I come back I feel no connection to this place. There’s a line that just sums it all up: “Cling to me so just one more just one more go. Inspire in me the desire in me to never go home.”  I don’t want to leave England to go back home, I need to be inspired to not do so. Thank you Robert Smith. You just want something or someone to mean enough to keep you away from the place you don’t want to go.

Disintegration wasn’t well recieved by critics but hey- what do they know. As a fan, I can safely say it is a bloody good record. How could you not? Maybe I’m just a biased fan, but when you truly love a band. I mean truly, truly love them; everything they do is perfect and means the world to you because it is the band that saved your soul. It is the band that wrote the songs that saved you and comforts you to this very day. No other band will ever mean as much. They could change their style and make an obscure Opera record; but you would still love and adore them with everything you have. To me, that’s what being a fan is about. Feeling every song, every lyric, every note to the very core of you.